Well today I got an email from an friend about her new blog (thanks Dani!) and I suddenly remembered that I have been very neglectful to my own blog. Here it's sat for almost 3 months with no new posts....what a terrible blogger I am! :( Anyway, I think Facebook has made it extremely easy for me to feel connected to those people who I am close to and sometimes I feel like I don't really have anything new or exciting to blog about. However, I do love to write and it really is very cathartic so I am attempting to force myself into doing it on a more regular basis. We'll see how that goes....
The last few months have flown by. It's amazing how fast time moves when you are too busy to pay attention. It seems like only yesterday I was a full-time stay at home mom to 2 young boys and was longing for the days of school, activities and fun with the kids once they were old enough for it. How foolish of me to have wished those days away so quickly. Not only that, but it seems as though I just started back to school and now...I'm nearing graduation in the next year or so. I turned 30 since I last blogged, and I can't believe that high school really was so long ago. I don't "feel" 30 (whatever that's supposed to feel like). In my head, I'm still just 21. It doesn't seem like I'm nearly accomplished enough to be 30 and the thought of being closer to 40 now than I am 20 just seems plain weird to me.
Ultimately though, like I told my family last month as they were teasing me for being so old, you are only as old as you feel. I don't feel old, I don't think I act old and hopefully, I don't look too old either (although I did find a grey hair recently). I do however feel like life is something that I am just waiting to happen. Don't get me wrong, I love my life. I am more than content with where we are in our lives, but I'm waiting to graduate, waiting to move to a bigger house, waiting to see what kind of job I'll get and it just feels like my "adult life" really hasn't started yet. I suppose that being a mother of an 8 year old and a 5 year old technically qualifies me as an adult but some days I don't feel too much older than my kids.
Anyway, it's strange that this is the topic that came out as I sat down to write. I didn't have anything specific to write about so I thought I would just see where this would go. Evidently I've had something on my mind. I suppose the trick in all of this is to figure out how to live my life in the here and now, as I am. I'm guessing if I could figure out how to do that, I would make myself a wealthy woman. I guess we'll just see how it goes....
